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so came back yesterday at 3pm.bintan was a 3days 2nights thingy.had not an entirely great time.but still there was some worth.first,it was paid for by first sister&husband.second ,there is no second reason.its just the first one.so i have 5 siblings but none i state none of them i am close too and none of them i ever consult my problems too.it has always been the jiwes.so thats why i said i didnt had no great time.it'd be better if i pay and i went with jiwes or bf instead.when i work ill wana treat my jiwes.theyre worth every single cent.theyre just priceless.expensive things that money cant buy.especially fiza.yah i used to dont like her and criticize her and stuff back then but back then was over.now its fiza,fika&yanie.one day okay (:
"sometimes i wished i'd long be over.sometimes i wished what i had would die on me.sometimes i wished id disappear into thin air.sometimes i just dont wana be me.i wana run away and avoid and hide and whisper and cry and break down and drown myself in tears uncountable.sometimes is just not possible.i know it isnt.i smile and never looked behind on what keeps me down.i laugh and keep on laughing despite the agony im facing.i just dont wana faced it anymore,ive run out of colour.that explains why im pale most of the time eh.i wana give up but i cant.cause i made a promise to myself i wont and never will.its just something i have to go thru because i made plans for the future and it says im gonna lived way longer than expected and with the people i loved.i wana fall down and out but im stronger than this.let me prove to you my strength and how far i can go.let me do it at least i know i've tried and give it my all."
ANA
