yey.the day has arrive.my first time seh.tak sabar gua deh mau tgk fmx.its today at 7pm to 10pm.at singapore flyer backdrop ok.but to tell you the truth,i dont feel like going out today.i scared i hurt people feelings.because i tend to speak my mind alot this week.&i hurt alot of people this week itself.its not only you.idk why but its as if something inside me already partly gave up.no not love.just being me.me me me me me.so i was on suicidal mode.trying so hard to kill myself but i kept having those family&friends face rewinding at the back of my head.drowning myself in pillows cause i feel better when silence overcome the noises at home.and scratching myself like a dj would scratch his record.you know.its nice.im so sick&tired.

sick&tired of it :'(